Thursday, April 30, 2009

..12.42 am...

still stand in front of my sweet heart...
mt laptop...hhehe...
actually the main motive to me to be like this is for do some revision for my next paper preparation...computer graphic...huhu..
but..as usual...
finally i lost with my virtual villagers..pet society...facebook...da songs...
and...dreaming..hehe..
sitting here and see outside the window....suddenly something..light yg berkelip2 crossover my window..ffweeeeeeewww...there was an aeroplane..huhu
cannot wait to fly back to my hometown...even just one week more...but i feel like a years...
mama....at xsbr nk blk da...huhu..

i miss my mom cook so much...huhu...i want to eat as much as i can when i go back soon...hehe

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

..it just happen..

this poem happen at one morning because of him..because all the shit..nonsense...and everything that make me hurt...make me cry a lot...make me sick..but now ..it's ok for me to think about it twice or mayb more...

Dear…
How could u do this to me…
Why you just simply do it to me…
For the whole of my life I never regret that I’ve met you…
But..
Yesterday,
You make me feel that I’m so loser to have someone like you..
I’m really disappointed…
Not because of you…
But because of me,
Myself…
Why????
Why??
Why??
This entire thing keeps questioning me from yesterday…
Is it I was the blind one…?
Or you are the loser…?
I’m feeling like a shit when I kept thinking of you…
There’s nothing left for me…
Now I just want to throw all the moments that we were went through together…
Please…Just leave me alone…
Leave me peacefully..
Don’t you ever turn your back at me…
Please….
Go away….
Girl..
Please wipe your tears…
Please stop crying…
Don’t you ever waste your life for the man like that…
You deserved the brighter future…
Rather than just weeping your love…
Wake up…
Look at yourself…
Be reminding to yourself that you are strong…
Strong than you even thought…
You can walk alone by yourself…
You don’t need him to be your eyes to walk through in the dark…
God has given you two eyes to treasure this world…
Please…
Just start your first step…
And the first step is to leave him…

..sumthing from the past..

hurmm...??
that shirt while i want to keep in my closet?..suddenly remind me about sumone from the past..why???
is it so hard to forget and to accept the reality...i don't want to think..but it's seem so hard to me to let it go..is it i'm so cruel to be with sumone else but at the same time still think about someone else...if i have all the power, i want to erase all the things that can remind me about him...
it's so unfair for me and him..i thought i can just let it go all da things from the past just like the wind...but i'm wrong..totally wrong...i just wished that i can back to the past and do not do the misstakes..but it's not going to happen..i mustto be face the truth..i'm so sick to be someone that not really me...it's easy if we just say it and do the things that we are talking about...Damn..why i can't just let it go...please let me free....i hope one day i can put that moment into a bottle and throw it into the sea...then just let it go with the flow...i hope so..huhu

Sunday, April 19, 2009

..uNder ConstRuction...

Dear alll...
For ur information this bog is still under construction...
So that's why it's seem a little bit messy..hehe.
So harap bsbr yerk...
After exam i will improve my blog...
thanx to all...

..exam wEek..

..tommorow 20 April...
Da Start Exam...uwaaa.
hurm...
1st paper is Game Development Paper...
But bknye Nk Study note subject game...
Men Game ag Adela...huhu...
Please God give me strength to study...
Hopefully pasni aku rajin la study2....
...Dun play2 k...

Friday, April 17, 2009

..my fiRst Step..

deaR All..
hehe..dUn knOw wHAt to say!!
thIs is my 1st time writing sumthind on my blog...
next time i'll will write more..
hehe..cannot wait..