issues

Sometimes
I Feel like I’m going out of
My mind,

Boy the way you do me is a
damn crime,

But then you smile at me
and its all right,

With you there aint nothin' in between,

Every time that I walk out the door,
Tell myself I can't take it no more,

There’s a part of me won't let you go
Keep saying yes when my minds saying no,

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Its so wrong, boy you leave me hangin' for so long,
You empty out my love until its all gone,
You change the words but still it's the same song,
I’m tired of the melody.

Change my number and throw out your clothes,
But my feelings for you, it still shows,
I keep building the walls round my heart,
But then I see you, and it all falls apart...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Why fight it, cant hide it
Truth is I think I like it,
Confusion, illusions
Still I don’t know which way to go….


Chorus: (x2)
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues,
We got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues

Me and my heart we got issues
Don’t know whether I should hate you or miss you.

::Dear Heart:Seriously i hate u!::

i'm totally Malay..ok!

this morning conversation:
A called from customer
Person A:Yes who's your designer?
Customer:My designer was the arabic girl...
hah??/what?????OMG!..please i'm totally malay ok...
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Still on sorting up all the messy thing........hurmmmmmmm.......Seriously i don't know what to do..........

walking alone by myself..
then suddenly there's sumthing happened...
it make me realized that when you feeling empty,there's sumthing else that can make you feel u are actually have more than  you're ever realized..
and you must remember that everythings happy for a reason...
now..i can see the things from many perspective..
yup...like someone said "i like the way you represent ur self"...

Yes I choose to be me not You..

OMG!i missed u so much..i really missed u..i miss to write..it has been a while that i don't have any mood to update my blog..sorry readers...but now let me update what was happened to me since i'm not here..now i'm still in KL looking for a job...arghh talking about finding a job really make me grow up and knew about the real world outside...but let me hold first the story..

A friend..
Since i was doing my industrial training she was being my "lover"...than we had dating for a few times in KL..hehe..sorry my dear coz for the late update..i hope you dont mind..otey + tetttt..ahahahahaha..now i'm laughing just because of that...u really make my day...even sometimes u was the one who "lipas" me..ahahaha..what was i'm talking about..hey it's up to me la..this is my blog rite..."percintaan"...what else? blueberry tart cheese, spaghetti,,or being an artist....adoiyaiiii..seriously missed u rite now...hey!please come back faster...then we had a cool vacation together..otey?+...hurm ..actually on 22 November 2010..i was dating with her at KLCC..actually we had dating before at another place..but we don't have any pictures as an evidence..ngeee...now we had all that...ahahahaha...seriously sengal...actually some of the picture was taken by "foreigner"..is it?..whatever..as long as we had a picture together...let's see the picture

-breakfast time-then after that we can continue our dating

the word "percintaan" was start here....

at playground.."berdekah-dekah"..and keep laughing 

KLCC la kunun..ahahaha

"a snail hug"arghhh..keep laughing..

waiting for the lrt and go back :(

for u my dear..i believe that u'll find the happiness better than what u had before...just wait and pray..."percintaannnnn"....love u more...don't noty2 if not i "lipas u"

Next episode " an interview"
Actually on 22 November when i was dating with miss FSH i had a call for an interview on the next day and the day after tomorrow..

1.Management Trainee (23 November 2010)
Interview at Wisma Central,KLCC..it was my first time actually being attend for an interview..so nervous and excited...at 12.00 pm i was went to the company with sumone who accompany me..thanx to that person..i was intervied by a manager named Mr. Raj..hurm..speaking..bla2...and he said in two days if i got the job,they will call me back..ok...fine...

2.Graphic Designer cum Web Designer at POLO travel...(24 November 2010)
The position needed by a travel company at jln Sharmelin..so i went there by a taxi because it's hard for me to park a car if i went by a car..so i just take a taxi..hurm..the interview was ok..but maybe they want a person with an experience so ofcourse it's not me..than it's ok....i just try my luck and get a new experience..it's so great to have all that..hehehe..
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since wait for all the feedback from those company i was at my brother's home finished my industrial training report..arghh damn!i had no idea to write the report..but i have to..i just try my best to finish it as best as i can..hhahaha..what else i can do rite??

Saturday (27 November 2010)
i was doing the report,then at 12 pm i got a phone call..and not from my contact number..that i just answered it...May i speak to Ms. haryati...yes speaking..."congratulation you had choose by the company to attend a training for the position bla bla bla..."please come on monday for the training...yeay i got the job...

Monday
At 9.45 am i was arrived at the company..then i saw a few people were filled up the form..after that i know that they were came for the training same goes to me...what??why they hired so many people..??hurm i'm so curious about that..but let it be..my heart said just try first..then Mr. Raj the manager came and give a speech and briefing about our training..then bla bla..Everybody had one supervisor then we have to go out and came back at the office at 5.30 pm for the second interview...hah??what is going on actually??weird..but what to do, i already here and i have to continue my training..then my supervisor and me were went to Damansara..The Sv said when we reached there,i can see how they do their job...hurm...arghh actually what happened was we have to sold a Domino's voucher to the company in that area...WHAAATTTTTTTT?WTF??Bullshit!!!!!!!!!!is it it was being like a promoter or salesgirl...arghhhh Damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WTH!urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i'm so angry with myself..i felt like i'm being fool...stupid!..then believe me that was my last day for ever..ahaha..and i just go back home just like that...then the sv kept calling me,asking about me....Arghhh bullshit...so i just leave the company...it's so scary ok!after that i be more careful in finding a job..ahahahahha..seriously it's really ruined my day.... but when i think back,its good for me to through all this thing so that i can be more independent in the future...if not i still didn't know about the real world..about many kinds of way on how people survived their own life............fuhhh..that's why we call it "a life"..

so that's why i choose to be me,not anyone else..everyone have their own ways on how to survive their life..and how to get their own happiness...but if you not being honest for yourself believe me you had nothing to hold except your own fool...

Finally Found

finally the truth was find out..fullstops..and i'm really happy for that..and i'm not regret for leaving that before..My decision was rite!..Thank GOD!..i feel great..hahaha...To that person...please..please..please...please...find ur own happiness by urself..don't drag other person into ur life..PLEASE!!!!grow UP!..please be ashamed for urself...

fishing or finishing

hurm..finally i have time to update my little diary..even just a few minutes..i think it's enough rather than nothing..lately most of my free times were being busy hanging out wif my cousin or join my brother goin' to fishing..i went for a fishing somewhere in Semenyih,Selangor..Let's have some pictures of that moments ok..Because i don't have enough time to explain more..let u all readers make a conclusion from the pictures..

before fishing have to prepare the "umpan"

the tools

ready

beautifull

next day different place

having a moment

hurm..

on the way back finally the car was broken (sigh)..

fix it..done..

P/S:where's the fish?????????????????let it be mystery...whaaahahaha

..PTM ,UM was on FIRE!!..

Suddenly at 9.15 a.m..the electricity in the office were cut off...then the computer were blinkin'..then a few minutes later the system are down..cannot access to the internet...Then i heard sumone said the server room had been fired...WHAT???then after a few second ..BOOMMMMM..sound like an exploded happened..So scary..then some of the staff PTM,UM yelling ..run..run...The server room had been exploded!!..OmG!..i just take my beg n run to the downstairs..and i saw there were other;s staffs who already gathered..It was so real..i never thought something like that happened to me..

..we have to wait outside the office..

gathered at emergency place

..wat is goin' on actually??..

The fireman is comin'..

..the fireman go to the server room..

this is the things which are exploded..

Actually today was my last day before went back to my hometown..then i take this chances to escaped..wakaka..because of the server is down then for sure we don't have to clock out..then no one knows that i already at home at 1 p.m..bye...........

1st Ramadhan

Thank GOD that i still alive on 1st ramadhan..what a wonderful moment..Alhamdulillah..but the sad thing was cannot have dis ramadhan with mama and abah...:(..miss them so much...but it's ok i still have my brother and my sister here...

1st Ramadhan..

5.00 a.m..

my sis wake me up for sahur..Then i ate some "nasi and ayam goreng" and not forget to add some "kicap"..ngeee..as usuall on first sahur "my tekak cannot telan so much" but it's ok as long as wt alas perut...then 5.15a.m go to sleep again..ngeee..ngantok weyh...

6.15 a.m

My alarm was snoozed for the second time...wat???actually in this ramadhan i have to start work at 8.00 a.m till 4.30 p.m..so i have to drive at 6.50 a.m..meaning that i have to woke up at 6 a.m..Then i arrived at the office at 7.40 a.m..

During office hour...

I felt so weak after lunch..the worse thing was when i was attacked by gastric again...waaaaa..i felt like want to vomit but still "tahan" because i dont want to ruin my day...

4.30 pm...

Yeay time to go back home..Damn!! still jammed even can go back early...hampeh...but at the same time my stomach felt so gripping..arghh..then finally at the traffic light near to my home, i cannot stand anymore.."akak ada plastik x?..nk muntah...lucky there was a plastic in my bag...then berghhh..muntah..if not my car was ruinned with my "muntah" tadi...Then after reached at home..i still vomit..again..and again...don know how many times..huhu..so suffered..cian akak kne msk sowang...so today i'll hope everything gonna be ok..then i can "masak2"..teringin nk mkn telur kicap la plak...ngeee...

police report

this entry is actually continuous from again?? entry...hurm..let's straight to the point because of the accident yesterday mornin',last nite i went to the Dang Wangi police station to make a police report..Haish...so trouble ...anyway this was my first time making a police report..haha...so funny..i thought only at the bank we have to queue and "amek nombor" upanye same goes to the police station...by the way i have to key in all the details about the accident into the computer,then the police ask me to click "simpan" and lastly click "cetak"...kakaka..after the "cetak" is done:

The policeman:"hurm karbon pun dah nk abis"..xbrape nmpak...

Me:smiling(dlm hati berkata bkn karbon la pakcik "ink" la...)adoyaiii...

Then after that i have went to the next processed which is i have go to the building behind the main office..then go to the 1st floor, at room with no 4..this situation feels like you want to make a medical check up at the hospital...hahaha..after you feel in the form then you have go to the next room to see a doctor..same goes to my case..but ofcourse the person i have to met not a doctor..he is a Sergeant..Hurm..then bla2...explain about how the accident happened..and the funny thing was the "nyonya tua"was putar belitkn story..so meaning our report were not matched..then bla22....the case was closed..believe me just like dat..arghhhhhhhhhh..u just waste my time...Damn iT!!...........

------the sweet thing happen at the police station was we met the policeman who was live as same as our apartment..."bley tahanla"...sweet...(shy2 cat)----------

again??

OMG!!...another car bumped into my car dis morning...dis time by "amoi tua"..arghhh...damn it!!!!...u ruined my day!!!seriously i have no mood today...but sorry to my sister in law , she might be shocked because of my reaction...sowie akak..emosi xtkawal td...i didn't mean it...but seriously i'm so "BENGANG"...huh!!..wat else??jammed after the NPE tol...arggh another things that ruined my day....but...wat to do..dis is what we call a "LIFE"...

.BitCh.

.BitCh.

Is it it’s too much with that word???for me nope..yesterday morning..as usual, I’ll drive to the office. then suddenly at one traffic light there’s one car belong to the BITCH was bumped my car…arghh damn it..she’s the one who at the wrong way but she’s the one who said stupid to me…nie da lebey!!..then I open my seat belt and thought want to go out and did something…hurm,but my sister in law said just reversed and  me:“mengalah”..huhu..i’m so x puas hati..if I could I wanted  to  slap her face too..but when I think back she’s only a bitch..So, I  don’t need to waste my time just to think about that person..but I’ll always remember your plate number ok..so be careful BITCH..

..today..

There’s something happen too..but better not to exposed it out..haha..it’s just between my sister in law and me who knows about the tragedy…

p/s:akak please keep it the secret ok..hehe..luv u..if not u better kill me..hehe

For me:

Don’t ever2 do like that again..don’t let the same mistakes happen..ngeee…

..Internship..

Today I’m so stressed..got so many things to change with the links..but the worse thing is I have to do the same things too many times…arghh..It’s not my mistakes “lah”

Yesterday..

Dating with yayunk..hehe..thanx nolee for coming and had lunch together at A&W..i miss u so much..so happy to see u again..and that guy with his “bisnes kain”..haha..i hope we can “ronggeng” again this weekend..

..K.A.N.T.O.I..

..wat a nite..
OMG!!sumone found an account wif my profile picture..but the name was different...
meaning dat...KANTOI...TIDAAKKKKKKKKKKKK..when "dat person" found out??and why must "dat person" using my picture as "dat person" account...uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....wat should i do..??just pretending that nothing happen..and juz wait for DA Day for "dat person" want to explode...what weapon should i prepare for da day???uwaaaa so scary...is it my fault??i thought i'll ready informed "dat person" dat i have the account..oh GOD please bless me..for now i think i just act as usuall..ngeeeee....watever..arghhh geram..all this happen because of dat psycho person....DAMN iT!!..

PSYCHO

Who are you jerk??Why u were so cared about other people..If they want to delete their account, offline or whatever they want..That’s their own privacy..Who r u to complaint it??F****r!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argghhh I really hate dis kind of person..Did u have something else to do besides do care about others..???or mayb u have a mental problem then maybe I should compromised it..haha..But I don’t think so...Maybe ur PSYCHO…by the way I’m so sorry for u…I hope you will be ok soon...

..desperate..

..i dun know why there's still has a desperate person in this world..desperate to b love by sumone..Damn!!please find ur love with someone else..dun simply fooled ur self by taking advantage on others..by making that just proved it that ur very DESPERATE or the right word was LOSER..arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....please go away...find ur love by our own....for that person go to HELL!!..

..arghh bullshit..

..why so sudden there was sumone who interfere my life..who are you???? SHIT!!!! please dun bother others business...Damn!!!Can u leave me alone please.........................!!!

airport's drama..

leave on 2.15pm from my brother's home at cheras to LCCT airport....2.30pm having lunch at my brother's home area..then around 3 oclock we continue our journey to LCCT..about 15 minutes like that,suddenly the rain is coming..waaaaa....so heavy..xnmpak jln da nk drive...my heart felt so worried..but dun want to bother anyone else..so i'm juz quite..but i know that sumthing gonna b happen..then it's already 3.30Pm but we still on the road..What???..3.45++ heee buley ke cmtu??we arrived at LCCT..then i put all my things on the troli..only my sister in law was accompany me to the check in counter..the rest still find the parking..huhu..cuak beb time tu..3.50pm..standing in front of boarding departure time..and at the same time the word open change to close for flight AK5212 counter..WTF!!!!...Shit!!!Damn it!!What should i do...dlm kpale ni da tbyg New ticket!!!n one thing i've already imagined bguni2 bebelan dr mama..Tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....Then i've quickly call my cousin mrangkap pA ak tok bli tket Flight...Kak Mah..then she said juz ask to the next counter and asking them for helping me..lari sana,lari sni..then i reached the last counter or maybe it's for emergency case counter..can i named it like that??what ever..ni kn cte aku so it's up to me la..wakaka..the Mr.Counter said..he cannot do anything bcoz i'm too late..huhu..but i kept begging him...at first he said that i can fly but no luggage are allowed..what???sume bj ak dlm tu la sengal..hurm..but aku nekad..if anything pun i have to fly and juz leave the luggage..as long as my ticket not burned juz like that..RM 240 tu beb..gle ke..len la ak ank tauke balak...then i still begging him for take along my luggage..i think dia pun da serabut ngn rayuan manja aku tu..hahaha..then he juz giv me the permission to bring along the luggage and asked me to timbang the luggage tu cpt2..i thought after timbang tu all the problems are settle la...but it's not juz like that..my luggage was overweight..hurm aku da agak da..20kg tu..then my sister helped me to rearranged all the things inside the luggage...haha milo 2kg tu pas kuakn trus ngam2 16kg beg aku..but i have to dera my blkg ngn pikul laptop n 2kg milo...Alhamdulillah i'll already in Kuching at 6.15pm..thanks to all who were helping me secara langsung or xlangsung..wakaka...but it's was so drama..wakaka..i thought i cannot forgot this drama smpai beble2 pun...thanks to all extra actors too..haha..






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