..hangout..

Yesterday...
i was dating with my bez fwen when i was in MMC..hehe
so happy...hangout together at KLCC...
spent time as much as we can...chatting..laughing.."ngumpatting"..wakaka
thanx sya...even i have to left early bcoz of him..huhu..sorry i didn't even know that he wanted to see me...








all the pictures kne snap sendri..huhu..tu yg xbesh..but it's okla..atleast we had some picture of us,,

..a journey...

all the picture below were taken when i on my way to KL...
mostly were taken at Kuala Terengganu..


..at my hometown..wat a beautiful paddy field..hehe



..wif my dear alif at bkt keluang,Besut..

..masjid terapung at Kuala Ibai...









wif my aunty...

..Kuala Abang..Terengganu










..OMG!!so beautiful..i like dis place...




..Posing time..hehe

..already in KL..huhu

today i wake up early monink..pack all the stuff which i have to bring..
my heart was empty right now...when i hugged my mom..i can see that she was crying..huhu..please don't...mama it's hard for me too...but i have to go...
.....
alif:kak at xyah la blk sek ag..dukla umh adik...
me:xbley..kak at kne sek..nant kak at blk ag yer.
alif:sok yerk kak at blk??
me:bkn lmbt ag...
alif:(crying)nape lmbt ag...........
me:silent
....
so sorry dear..ur sis have to go...i know that u were missing me...me too...
but what to do...i still have a long journey....

-10.32pm left my home with my aunt's family-
-12 pm..my phone was ringing...calling from mama...

answered-
alif:kak at da smpai ke sekolah kak at??ble kak at nk blk??
me:OMG!!i'm losing my words..wat should i said to him..so that he can understand that i'm not coming back so soon....

...then he kept calling me.......i have to lie and change the topic by saying that kak eina is coming back to home this January...luckily he's happy...and now he stop asking me when i can coming back to home....

.:FeVEr:.

yesterday...so suffer...huhu
headache..cough..flu..fever all in one package..Damn!!
hurm...thanx to mama for always being here for me..huhu
so touching when she was sleeping with me,mayb she's so worried about my condition...padahal demam aku xla teruk sgt..biasela mama je yg over..ngeeeeeeeee...
......................
but even i'm sick...i still hang out with my old friends..
actually my bez fwen..cayunk n aida..so epy to see them again...
we went to eat satay at Jabi..cian cayunk..lari diet..hehe...
.....
tomorrow....
goin' back to KL..huhu...
i dun' know why i'm still not ready yet..
no preparation....I'm still can't believe that this holiday are going to end..huhu
OMG!!..there were so many question played in my mind...huhu

..she's made my day..

..happy...
cayunk..u made my day...
happy to see u again..
but..i want more...
i want to spend more time with u cayunk...
huhu...neway thanx for coming...
i'm so happy...
luv u cayunk....


by the way this picture was taken 3 years ago...
cayunk..we have to snap more pictures together..huhu

..if i could...

hurm..i got news that my untie will coming back on this 25th December..then going back to kl on 29 December...i thought i want to go back to KL wif them bcoz my flight to Kuching is on 3rd January..i know that the gap are about 4 days..honestly, i dun want to go back to KL so early..but what to do coz i have too..if i'm not going back a few days before i fly, i afraid i might not be able to go out to buy my things for my fyp project..coz i have made some survey at Lowyat or sumwhere for the software which i want to use in my fyp..one more thing is i'm so fobia to go to KL by bus..huhu..this is because my bad experience past 3 years ago..that's why seboleh2 nk mengelak nek bas....huhu..but then i know mama sgt berat hati to let me go so early..and now i'm so confuse n serba salah...huhu..i dun want to hurt my mom's heart..what should i do??mama had said that all it's up to me..she's don't mind..but i know her true feeling that actually she's not ok...mama...please forgive me...i'll try to do the best for you...if i could..............

.:Boredamn:.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...Damn bored!!!!still rainning..


me:"mama...bowinkla..jom la g jejln.."
mom said :"ujan nie..cmne nk g memne..agpun mama keje..pas ni mama cti pnjg 5 hari..."
me:"hurm"(sigh)
mama:"gtau mama awk nk g mne..klu nk g jln..."
me:"g la memne..but not at home...uwaaaaaaaa"
mama:"ok..nant da xujan kte g"..
me:::
hurm..yeah..u just said it right..i knew it...huhu..but i really hope for going somewhere..please mom...i'm begging u..or why not u juz let me go by myself..hurmm dlm hati mimpi je la at...but mom..i knew u really try to make me happy right??...neway i love u so much...mmuahhhh...but mama,promise still a promise k..hehe..dun ever break it..

.:Missing Monink:.

i don't know whether the title of this post is suitable or not...bcoz i just name it as i want it to be like that..what the heck i'm talking about..hurm..obviously i'm so bored..huhu...BORED??even i have so many things to do....hehe..actually i have no idea how to start it..especially for my fyp...uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...somebody please help me..next sem are so scary for me..i don't know how to face it..is it i'm strong enough to face it..??OMG!!HELP ME...all i could do is just prayed and hope the best for my journey next sem...one more thing i dun know when i can sort out all the messy things that still played in my heart....

..happy new year=salam maal hijrah..

Friday...
Alhamdullillah..I'm still alive....
Rainning day..good weather..and of course today all Muslim are celebrating a new year which is stated in Islamic Calendar for every Awal Muharram....i hope this new year will be a first step for me to change and move on..no more regret..
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Yesterday..
Accidentally, i met my old fiend...is it you???he said:"yup..."..hurm...don't know what to say..but, he makes me remembered some memory..ngeeeeeeee.....:P

and one more thing about yesterday was these word.."minum air dik..."huaaaaaaaaaaaaa...what???haha...enough..can u just drink ur own...and...arghhh..mls la nk layan.....full stop-end-

.:aLreaDy GoNe:.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

..hardest Thing..

..i’m back…but dun know how to start and how to end..but at least all its over..being at home for this semester break really2 make me feel so full..full??full of what??foods..anger..emotion..memory..tears..and so on..hurm…after the final exam I went to Malacca for visiting my sister..but actually there was another reason why I was there..because of sumone..after 1 or 2 years for not seeing each other we finally met again..but when I saw him at that time what was my actually feeling??OMG??is it I’m too much…dun know what happen…but my heart said there was something not right for seeing him…what to do…all already happen…there’s nothing to regret..everything happen for the reason…..all are up to me as a human to think about it..even we walk together..we eat together..i dun think deep down in my heart i really enjoyed it..but i have to wait..until i came back to my hometown..if not,the things maybe will getting worse..i admit that i do like him..but i dun think i love him..being together for a couple it's really hard for us..may be the problem is me..not him..maybe i'm not for him..and he deserved the the better girl than me..then when we came back to our hometown,there were so much argument..what is wrong with you??why??OMG i cannot stand it..i dun even know how to deal with it..it's really make me hurt..sad..and so confuse..what was I've done??then after that i've decided to end it..this is bullshit..damn it..be friend??owh please don't..just end it everything here..just leave me alone..i know it's hard..but what should i do..if we still go on..we'll just hurting each other..i dun want it happen again..perhaps not anymore..not the same mistake..the truth is till now i do think about him..OMG..why it's so hard for me to just let it go..why i must think about him..i hope i will better in time..all i can do just prayed for his happiness..people said that if you really do love someone just let he free..if he come back..he's yours..and if not..just let it be..



..this is the picture taken when i was in malacca..but one thing about this picture was about the bag..the bag that i was wearing..huhu..till now when i look at the bag i always think about him..because the bag was bought while we were hangout together in malacca..all the memory were still there..how can i just throw it..and deleted..til now..all i can do is..pray..pray..and pray......