Friday, December 17, 2010

A Spoil Toaster

Good Morning everyone..cempaka in da house..ngee..what a beautifull morning..but sadly a toaster has ruined everything..arghhhhhhh...actually this morning i want to breakfast with a butterscotch bread toasted...but i don't know why the toaster was nor kept vomit back my bread...even i pressed it so many what's left just a hot neslo with the i just "cicah" the butterscotch with my hot neslo..hurmmm.........

Last night i had message him that i'm gonna be back to my hometown next week..but i don't know why he didn't reply till it he was angry with my decision..but what can i do..i have to do that..what else left here for me..i cannot just sit down without doing anything..better i go back to my hometown..atleast i can be with my parents..i missed my mom and dad so much...hurm..if he didn't want to understand my situation,what else i can do..let it be...i just hope that one day he can understand why i'm doing's all for our own goods...

one more thing that not supposed to be happen was "an email"..arghh..why it kept coming to my's so annoying..could you understand that there's nothing could change....even so many emails send it to my inbox...

Dear heart:can i have a peaceful vacation please...really needed..

Thursday, December 16, 2010


time goes by..but i'm still like this..kept regret on doing the same mistakes..hurm..i afraid to leave,but i think i have too..either i like it or not..there's nothing left here for me..arghhhhh i hate this feeling so much!!i wish i were sumone else now...sometimes, being in love it's not a wonderful things that ever happened in your life...sometimes it can be a disaster...Love also can make your life so miserable...

" there can be thousands way to destroy a relationship, but it just take two hearts to keep the relationship intact - if both hearts know how."

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Sunday Morning

hye..morning all......i'm at Ampang..haish...haven't breakfast yet..what should i do today??hurm mayb going out somewhere and have a walk...

Saturday, December 11, 2010



Friday, December 10, 2010

time to climb :)

On last tuesday,8 December was a public holiday for "Awal Muharram" my brother's family and i were went to genting higlang..yeah it's time to it?..Actually we were went to Strawberry farm....hurm we went there at 1 pm..but it's still cold...yup it is because being at the high lands..hehehe,,that's why it's so cold...
There were some pictures taken..

at the farm entrance

wow so many strawberries

time to eat the strawberry

strawberry stuff

wif da flowers



Then after that my brother bring us to Genting theme park..but just for a walk...

Yes I choose to be me not You..

OMG!i missed u so much..i really missed u..i miss to has been a while that i don't have any mood to update my blog..sorry readers...but now let me update what was happened to me since i'm not i'm still in KL looking for a job...arghh talking about finding a job really make me grow up and knew about the real world outside...but let me hold first the story..

A friend..
Since i was doing my industrial training she was being my "lover"...than we had dating for a few times in KL..hehe..sorry my dear coz for the late update..i hope you dont mind..otey + i'm laughing just because of that...u really make my day...even sometimes u was the one who "lipas" me..ahahaha..what was i'm talking about..hey it's up to me la..this is my blog rite..."percintaan"...what else? blueberry tart cheese, spaghetti,,or being an artist....adoiyaiiii..seriously missed u rite now...hey!please come back faster...then we had a cool vacation together..otey?+...hurm ..actually on 22 November 2010..i was dating with her at KLCC..actually we had dating before at another place..but we don't have any pictures as an we had all that...ahahahaha...seriously sengal...actually some of the picture was taken by "foreigner" it? long as we had a picture together...let's see the picture

-breakfast time-then after that we can continue our dating

the word "percintaan" was start here....

at playground.."berdekah-dekah"..and keep laughing 

KLCC la kunun..ahahaha

"a snail hug"arghhh..keep laughing..

waiting for the lrt and go back :(
for u my dear..i believe that u'll find the happiness better than what u had before...just wait and pray..."percintaannnnn" u more...don't noty2 if not i "lipas u"

Next episode " an interview"
Actually on 22 November when i was dating with miss FSH i had a call for an interview on the next day and the day after tomorrow..

1.Management Trainee (23 November 2010)
Interview at Wisma Central, was my first time actually being attend for an nervous and 12.00 pm i was went to the company with sumone who accompany me..thanx to that person..i was intervied by a manager named Mr. Raj..hurm..speaking..bla2...and he said in two days if i got the job,they will call me back..ok...fine...

2.Graphic Designer cum Web Designer at POLO travel...(24 November 2010)
The position needed by a travel company at jln i went there by a taxi because it's hard for me to park a car if i went by a i just take a taxi..hurm..the interview was ok..but maybe they want a person with an experience so ofcourse it's not me..than it's ok....i just try my luck and get a new's so great to have all that..hehehe..
since wait for all the feedback from those company i was at my brother's home finished my industrial training report..arghh damn!i had no idea to write the report..but i have to..i just try my best to finish it as best as i can..hhahaha..what else i can do rite??

Saturday (27 November 2010)
i was doing the report,then at 12 pm i got a phone call..and not from my contact number..that i just answered it...May i speak to Ms. haryati...yes speaking..."congratulation you had choose by the company to attend a training for the position bla bla bla..."please come on monday for the training...yeay i got the job...

At 9.45 am i was arrived at the company..then i saw a few people were filled up the form..after that i know that they were came for the training same goes to me...what??why they hired so many people..??hurm i'm so curious about that..but let it heart said just try first..then Mr. Raj the manager came and give a speech and briefing about our training..then bla bla..Everybody had one supervisor then we have to go out and came back at the office at 5.30 pm for the second interview...hah??what is going on actually??weird..but what to do, i already here and i have to continue my training..then my supervisor and me were went to Damansara..The Sv said when we reached there,i can see how they do their job...hurm...arghh actually what happened was we have to sold a Domino's voucher to the company in that area...WHAAATTTTTTTT?WTF??Bullshit!!!!!!!!!!is it it was being like a promoter or salesgirl...arghhhh Damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WTH!urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i'm so angry with myself..i felt like i'm being fool...stupid!..then believe me that was my last day for ever..ahaha..and i just go back home just like that...then the sv kept calling me,asking about me....Arghhh i just leave the's so scary ok!after that i be more careful in finding a job..ahahahahha..seriously it's really ruined my day.... but when i think back,its good for me to through all this thing so that i can be more independent in the future...if not i still didn't know about the real world..about many kinds of way on how people survived their own life............fuhhh..that's why we call it "a life"..

so that's why i choose to be me,not anyone else..everyone have their own ways on how to survive their life..and how to get their own happiness...but if you not being honest for yourself believe me you had nothing to hold except your own fool...

Monday, November 15, 2010

Finally Found

finally the truth was find out..fullstops..and i'm really happy for that..and i'm not regret for leaving that before..My decision was rite!..Thank GOD!..i feel great..hahaha...To that person...please..please..please...please...find ur own happiness by urself..don't drag other person into ur life..PLEASE!!!!grow UP!..please be ashamed for urself...


thinking of runaway
but how, where and when?
Do you think anything can settle just like that..
Even you just throw it away and run..
it's still be ur shadow..
Nothing can separate both of them..
Now pick your best move, you could leave or live wit' it
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Dear Heart:I'm feeling so down.......

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Silent Treatment

i just need my own space for better we just be is better than we speak,but at the same time we're hurting each other...

...The silent treatment is CONTROL, and a safe means for them to avoid any  'uncomfortable' topics, issues in the relationship, or issues within himself (or herself).

Friday, November 12, 2010

i have to move on

Yup!i have to move on..that's it!..i'm so tired for being fooled by the person who didn't know how to appreciate on what they have..Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i'm so sick............

"There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life."–annynomous

 it's time to move on,
time to get going,
what lies ahead,
i have no way of knowing,
but under my feet,
grass is growing,
Frozen in real time,
i'm losing my mind,
It's time to move on,
it's time to get going,

Friday Entry

hi..Morning All!!
it has been a long time i didn't write for the friday entry..Maybe i'm so it?hahaha...What a day..Today is very peaceful with a raining day..What a beautiful day..i like it..So cold but so calm..As usual i like friday because it's the last day for every weekdays for me to go to work...Yeay!..then tomorrow would be Saturday! i can wake up late not at the early morning..Arghhhh..!..i hate it..!
There were so much thing happen to me for this week..but this time i just let it go and throw it away as far as i can..why should i be sad just for a small thing..i deserved to be happy..let others people with their own way..let it be..but for me, i just want to be my self..Everybody have been hurts but they also had been do i..i don't want to think much on it..Besides, me myself didn't know,is it it's to important for me to think of it?..Yeah..sumtimes we called it "KARMA"..what goes around comes around..what you give, you get back..So just let it to GOD to pay for it..i should be thankful on what i have now..
ok.then let's move to the next story..hurm finally, yesterday i got a part time's actually not really a big deal actually..ngeee..but i really like it..besides i'm so excited..Thanx for my friends,Mr Zhaffran for giving me a chanced..i really appreciated it..At least i got sumthing to do during my free times..if any jobs which i can do after this,please let me know..ok?

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Internship Presentation

Today would be my Internship Presentation with Dr. Jane..My supervisor said maybe she will coming at 2.30 pm..What should i prepare?

Presentation slide = Done
Logbook = Done
Physically = Done
Mentality = Hurm..not so sure..because my heart was messed up already..Arghhh!!Damn...

I hope everything gonna be OK..Please all pray for me..

3.00 pm
Yeay i'm done..Thanx Dr. Jane for evaluating i can have a big smile...

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Gamble Trip to Genting

 On LAst Saturday suddenly got a msg at 5.51 am from a friends..wait at lrt ****** we are goin' to Genting at 8.00 am..what???Then after that i go to the toilet for a bath..hurm..but still didn't ask the permission from my's already 6.30 am..but my bro still sleeping..hurm then i just prepared my self..ngeee..gamble..after that my brother woke up..but sadly he cannot give me the i have to call my mom..Thank GOD...luv u mama..YEAY!!..she gave me the permission to go to Genting..But don't have too muuch pictures at the Genting..all are in my friends camera..what to do..We are going with 7 friends..They are friends of my friends..hurm..let's move on to the pictures..

in front of First World

the ghost

in skyway cable car


wif mr sul n jep

 main entrance
the darkness

maybe i will upload the rest after i got the pictures from them..huhu..That's all fro now..

Monday, November 8, 2010

Someone From The PAst!!

Sudddenly,there was a msg from my ym...He???What??i thought i already deleted him long time ago from my ym list friends...but now...why he still can msg me??arggghhh!!!!!!Please go away!!!!!!!!!!Don’t u ever turn ur back at me again...we already end it all long time ago...please..let me go..u already have ur gf..what else do you want from me..bullshiT!!..why do you want to apologise..we don't have anything to apologies..Beside i already "deleted" u in my life..and now, u just came and say sorry then u said u want me to be with u again...just because u r not happy with ur gf..Then u want me back..WTF!!..Please appreciates on what u have now!..Please!..Please don't make my life so miserable..We already have our own path to live..So please live with it..Please don't regret on what already happened..What already passed between us..Please let it go..Because i just wanna live my life peacefully..and i'm happy on who I am now..i do not have a reason to get mad with you..because it's all already passed..for me it's all just like a piece of my memories..Which i've been through before and i have to let it go..the only things i can do now is just wish that u will change ur attitude and be someone who can appreciates on what they have..please do not hurts other's feeling..i’m sick for being pulling around..Please stop’s already ends..If people can change why not u?..Please change for ur own happiness...It’s too late to regret for what happened now...besides the decision is came from u..not me..u are the one who choose to be like that…Anyway thanks for giving me a chance to through all the pain..if not today I don’t think I can survived..yup. it hurts a lot..but now I can smile and move forward..That’s why we call it a life...Sometimes we are in love and happy..But there’s a time we are down and been hurts..if no ups and downs we are not balanced..rite?? better we try first then we can figure what we have to do next…by the way thanks for ruin my day… annoying!!..Damn it! I already got my own step so I hope you have ur own too...Please grow up don’t be so childish..Please end what u have start..There’s nothing u can get from me now..Times goes by so do i...Just pretend that we’ve never met and know each other before..just pretend that what was already happen just like a nightmare..When u woke up and opens ur eyes at the morning u realized the dreams already gone...U feels so relief because it’s just a dream...Then u can live ur life as usual...just walk ahead like nothing can stopped u from move on..

Dear Heart:Just ignore "him"..let it be..don't be burden by the small tough..ok?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

women's instincts

"I would rather trust a women's instinct than a man's reason" are the words of Stanley Baldwin. It is a recurring story of women's instinct gaining ground in comparison to men's decisions in the course of shaping up of events in any field whether it is family work or love. Education and exposure have further contributed to sharpen the womanly instinct aiding to portray her as an independent entity with a crystal clear perspective towards life with her womanly nature of patience, calmness and motherly instincts well preserved.

Womanly instinct in love
A woman normally follows her heart and a modern woman's instinct is a good blend of her heart and her head. Though reason has a major hand in her determining her life partner, it is her instinct that first sets her in the path of love. It has to strike her instinct for the person to be her special 'he'. The man has to woo her instinct rather than her in winning her heart. Today's woman's instinct is seldom prone to making errors in the choice of her partner. Her instinct helps her foresee as to how her life will shape up with a particular person. It is somewhere deep within her heart, an intuition or an instinct tells her what has to be decided. Reason spring up with the validity of facts but the absence of a positive signal from her instincts results in a less fulfilling relationship like that of a beautiful flower sans fragrance.

Womanly instinct in family
Women are naturally prone to nest building, home making and family life. They are genetically featured to care taking and protecting.

"Behind every man's success is a woman" is a popular saying. In fact it is the womanly instincts that pave way for a man's success. Women possess better emotional stability when compared to men. A man's reason coupled with a woman's instinct will help in accurate decision making at home. Her womanly instinct with her patience and forbearance, love and warmth sets the platform for a harmonious home. Her instinct plays a major role in her family life in decision-making from the choice of her kid's school to major decisions like investments and children's marriage. A school with novel features and facilities may not interest her as her motherly instinct will look out for a place that will be more comfortable for her child to grow and learn. Similarly her motherly instincts play a major role guiding her son or her daughter in the choice of their partners for a happy and harmonious life. Her instincts points out what features in a marriage proposal will provide her daughter a peaceful living.

Womanly instincts at work
Women are naturally endowed with the ability to nurture and care that they dominate in vocations like nursing, teaching, animal welfare and gynecology. It is the basic female instinct to protect and love that has paved way for women's perpetual presence in these fields.

A healthy relationship with employees or subordinates can boost up one's business. This is in fact one of the important leadership qualities of today. A good working environment breeds a good working culture and better results. Women' instincts enable them to be good leaders with their relationships developing skills as employees follow the person and not the rank. It is often a woman's patience and the readiness to listen to the problems faced by the employee that help procuring better results and promoting better work culture. An amiable and friendly atmosphere gives way for a better performance and productivity by developing good personal relationships in teamwork. Women's instincts are much recognized at modern work culture as they are asked to rely on their instincts and values to aid them for a promising performance.

Hence women's instincts work the best immaterial of where and how they are employed.

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Friday, October 29, 2010

-far away-

why life it's so hard?
why do we people make it so complicated?
why not we just have a simple life and be happy?..
life is so short..we just live here for temporary not for ever..
"dunia hanya semntara yg kekal di akhirat sana..
"why don't people just understand that sometimes certain people just want have a simple life but still happy...
Why do we never appreciate what we have?
why isin't possible to fully appreciate someone or something while it's still here..

Wednesday, October 27, 2010 HEART iS bLeeDinG..

Dear Heart:Please be strong!!!!!..please...
it's easy to forgive but it's hard to forget..why do people always cheating on the person who they loved..why??? even they said that they did because don't want to broke ur heart..but did they realized that they had hurting them by doing that..besides it's even hard to accept....They just find the reasons to cover up the could they do that!!!Don't you know that been cheating by someone you loved it's so HURT!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

i'm SICK

..nothing much to say,just that rite now  i'm so sick..Sick of being ME!!..GOD please help me...i really need the strength to survive.....

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Please don't ask me why..

First of all i'm so sorry coz i have to leave you..i have to let it go...Dear i love you so much..But i can't accept the fact that u have lied to's hurts me a lot...i want to have you but at the same time i don't want to be fool..i want to be the old me..i want to be free..and just do what i want to do..i don't want to bother with what others people saying..i just want to be me...i want to be happy...and i want you to be free too..
Day ?? it i'm strong enough to through all this are you?..please take care of yourself...even i do hurt because of you..but i don't want you to be sick..i promised to myself to be strong...Everything around were reminds me of you...oh God!..why it's so hard for leave everything just like's so hard to forget and forgive...But i guess i can  pretended that i already forgot it..Sometimes it's good to be hypocrites rather than hurting urself by thinking about him..

This song really makes me sad....but i have to through all this by myself...

Dear Heart:i know u really loves him..but let's the times heals you..

Saturday, October 16, 2010


Last nite i was goin to i-City in Shah Alam, Selangor wif my cousin and his was so beautiful place and i had a great moments last nite..Around 9 pm we we went to s.Alam..Then around 1 a.m. we were back home..but before that we decide to have a drink at Q-Bistro..Then the result i was home around 2.30 a.m..whattt????????????haha...but thanks to them for always make me happy...I have some pictures at the i-City lets enjoy it..

had a great time wif them..thanx guys



wif mr peydi





wif little bro


p/s:just ignored the quality of the pictures..huhu :(

Friday, October 15, 2010

She's episode

cont from the last episode (it's happen to anybody called "she")....
it had been a few days she had been thinkin' about her dilemma..And she also felt so lonely..dun know why..maybe her bf was being so busy and don't have enough time to entertain her..but she cannot mad at her bf because all his done was for their own goods..He have to do a part time job to his future saving..He wants all the best to his gf..But as a woman, for sure she wants her bf spent more time with her too..But what to do..she just kept quite and leave the rest in her heart..She had been thinkin' for going back to her hometown and build a new life..Because she don't want to bother her bf anymore..She felt so guilty..But her bf had warned her for not doing that..he wanted she just stayed and be with him..but how??..She was so confuse what is the right thing that she should do?..The girl is really love him..but she dun know and not so sure about their future...Sometimes she just think want to runaway and leave everything just like that..Hurm...

to be continue...what should i write for the next episode??wait till i have the idea ok...

Thursday, October 14, 2010


arghhhh..suddenly all the ideas to write here was lost???OMG!!where it had been gone...oopss before i forgot i already buy a new beg, actually a sling beg..finally i made up my mind to buy a new one..i thinks it's time to let it go the old one..even there were so much memory with that..i think i should throw it it's the rite time for me to wear a new one and to forget the past..erkk??what actually i talking it it's all about the beg??or more than that...even it's hard for me to let it go..but i have too...i have to change it..what ever happen in future it's all one can expect what will happen as a human being we have to change..change for a better life..We, humans, are making mistakes. Accept what we did wrong and try to do better next time. No need to punish yourself forever. In fact, accepting our mistakes is the only way to make them disappear...Maybe you got hurt by somebody. Happens. Just accept it and deal with it. People are making mistakes and if you can accept that for yourself, accept it for your friends too. In the end, all you need from them is their is so hard rite..there were so much things to face it...(sigh)

it's happen to anybody called "she"...
one day..her bf was planning to bring her gf to go out went for a shopping with his mother..But suddenly his mum's car was broke what to do..Then his bf ask her to go to his house and met his was her 1st time met his mother face to face...she so nervous...Along the way to go to her bf house, she kept thinkin' what should she said...hurm..finally they met..then they were chatting about everything..bla bla bla bla...his mother dun want her to go back home early..but she have to..she had something else to do..besides there were so many things played in her head after met her mother bf...urghhhh..she felt so guilty..but why??why should she felt like it she just knoe that she actually not so serious about their relationship..or maybe she felt uneasy..or maybe she was not ready for being in that,what should she do??should she just leave the relationship or what??

fishing or finishing

hurm..finally i have time to update my little diary..even just a few minutes..i think it's enough rather than nothing..lately most of my free times were being busy hanging out wif my cousin or join my brother goin' to fishing..i went for a fishing somewhere in Semenyih,Selangor..Let's have some pictures of that moments ok..Because i don't have enough time to explain more..let u all readers make a conclusion from the pictures..

before fishing have to prepare the "umpan"

the tools



next day different place

having a moment


on the way back finally the car was broken (sigh)..

fix it..done..

P/S:where's the fish?????????????????let it be mystery...whaaahahaha