Thursday, December 31, 2009

..hangout..

Yesterday...
i was dating with my bez fwen when i was in MMC..hehe
so happy...hangout together at KLCC...
spent time as much as we can...chatting..laughing.."ngumpatting"..wakaka
thanx sya...even i have to left early bcoz of him..huhu..sorry i didn't even know that he wanted to see me...








all the pictures kne snap sendri..huhu..tu yg xbesh..but it's okla..atleast we had some picture of us,,

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

..a journey...

all the picture below were taken when i on my way to KL...
mostly were taken at Kuala Terengganu..


..at my hometown..wat a beautiful paddy field..hehe



..wif my dear alif at bkt keluang,Besut..

..masjid terapung at Kuala Ibai...









wif my aunty...

..Kuala Abang..Terengganu










..OMG!!so beautiful..i like dis place...




..Posing time..hehe

..already in KL..huhu

today i wake up early monink..pack all the stuff which i have to bring..
my heart was empty right now...when i hugged my mom..i can see that she was crying..huhu..please don't...mama it's hard for me too...but i have to go...
.....
alif:kak at xyah la blk sek ag..dukla umh adik...
me:xbley..kak at kne sek..nant kak at blk ag yer.
alif:sok yerk kak at blk??
me:bkn lmbt ag...
alif:(crying)nape lmbt ag...........
me:silent
....
so sorry dear..ur sis have to go...i know that u were missing me...me too...
but what to do...i still have a long journey....

-10.32pm left my home with my aunt's family-
-12 pm..my phone was ringing...calling from mama...

answered-
alif:kak at da smpai ke sekolah kak at??ble kak at nk blk??
me:OMG!!i'm losing my words..wat should i said to him..so that he can understand that i'm not coming back so soon....

...then he kept calling me.......i have to lie and change the topic by saying that kak eina is coming back to home this January...luckily he's happy...and now he stop asking me when i can coming back to home....

Monday, December 28, 2009

.:FeVEr:.

yesterday...so suffer...huhu
headache..cough..flu..fever all in one package..Damn!!
hurm...thanx to mama for always being here for me..huhu
so touching when she was sleeping with me,mayb she's so worried about my condition...padahal demam aku xla teruk sgt..biasela mama je yg over..ngeeeeeeeee...
......................
but even i'm sick...i still hang out with my old friends..
actually my bez fwen..cayunk n aida..so epy to see them again...
we went to eat satay at Jabi..cian cayunk..lari diet..hehe...
.....
tomorrow....
goin' back to KL..huhu...
i dun' know why i'm still not ready yet..
no preparation....I'm still can't believe that this holiday are going to end..huhu
OMG!!..there were so many question played in my mind...huhu

Saturday, December 26, 2009

..she's made my day..

..happy...
cayunk..u made my day...
happy to see u again..
but..i want more...
i want to spend more time with u cayunk...
huhu...neway thanx for coming...
i'm so happy...
luv u cayunk....


by the way this picture was taken 3 years ago...
cayunk..we have to snap more pictures together..huhu

Saturday, December 19, 2009

..if i could...

hurm..i got news that my untie will coming back on this 25th December..then going back to kl on 29 December...i thought i want to go back to KL wif them bcoz my flight to Kuching is on 3rd January..i know that the gap are about 4 days..honestly, i dun want to go back to KL so early..but what to do coz i have too..if i'm not going back a few days before i fly, i afraid i might not be able to go out to buy my things for my fyp project..coz i have made some survey at Lowyat or sumwhere for the software which i want to use in my fyp..one more thing is i'm so fobia to go to KL by bus..huhu..this is because my bad experience past 3 years ago..that's why seboleh2 nk mengelak nek bas....huhu..but then i know mama sgt berat hati to let me go so early..and now i'm so confuse n serba salah...huhu..i dun want to hurt my mom's heart..what should i do??mama had said that all it's up to me..she's don't mind..but i know her true feeling that actually she's not ok...mama...please forgive me...i'll try to do the best for you...if i could..............

.:Boredamn:.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...Damn bored!!!!still rainning..


me:"mama...bowinkla..jom la g jejln.."
mom said :"ujan nie..cmne nk g memne..agpun mama keje..pas ni mama cti pnjg 5 hari..."
me:"hurm"(sigh)
mama:"gtau mama awk nk g mne..klu nk g jln..."
me:"g la memne..but not at home...uwaaaaaaaa"
mama:"ok..nant da xujan kte g"..
me:::
hurm..yeah..u just said it right..i knew it...huhu..but i really hope for going somewhere..please mom...i'm begging u..or why not u juz let me go by myself..hurmm dlm hati mimpi je la at...but mom..i knew u really try to make me happy right??...neway i love u so much...mmuahhhh...but mama,promise still a promise k..hehe..dun ever break it..

.:Missing Monink:.

i don't know whether the title of this post is suitable or not...bcoz i just name it as i want it to be like that..what the heck i'm talking about..hurm..obviously i'm so bored..huhu...BORED??even i have so many things to do....hehe..actually i have no idea how to start it..especially for my fyp...uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...somebody please help me..next sem are so scary for me..i don't know how to face it..is it i'm strong enough to face it..??OMG!!HELP ME...all i could do is just prayed and hope the best for my journey next sem...one more thing i dun know when i can sort out all the messy things that still played in my heart....

Friday, December 18, 2009

..happy new year=salam maal hijrah..

Friday...
Alhamdullillah..I'm still alive....
Rainning day..good weather..and of course today all Muslim are celebrating a new year which is stated in Islamic Calendar for every Awal Muharram....i hope this new year will be a first step for me to change and move on..no more regret..
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Yesterday..
Accidentally, i met my old fiend...is it you???he said:"yup..."..hurm...don't know what to say..but, he makes me remembered some memory..ngeeeeeeee.....:P

and one more thing about yesterday was these word.."minum air dik..."huaaaaaaaaaaaaa...what???haha...enough..can u just drink ur own...and...arghhh..mls la nk layan.....full stop-end-

Monday, December 14, 2009

.:aLreaDy GoNe:.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone


Sunday, December 13, 2009

..hardest Thing..

..i’m back…but dun know how to start and how to end..but at least all its over..being at home for this semester break really2 make me feel so full..full??full of what??foods..anger..emotion..memory..tears..and so on..hurm…after the final exam I went to Malacca for visiting my sister..but actually there was another reason why I was there..because of sumone..after 1 or 2 years for not seeing each other we finally met again..but when I saw him at that time what was my actually feeling??OMG??is it I’m too much…dun know what happen…but my heart said there was something not right for seeing him…what to do…all already happen…there’s nothing to regret..everything happen for the reason…..all are up to me as a human to think about it..even we walk together..we eat together..i dun think deep down in my heart i really enjoyed it..but i have to wait..until i came back to my hometown..if not,the things maybe will getting worse..i admit that i do like him..but i dun think i love him..being together for a couple it's really hard for us..may be the problem is me..not him..maybe i'm not for him..and he deserved the the better girl than me..then when we came back to our hometown,there were so much argument..what is wrong with you??why??OMG i cannot stand it..i dun even know how to deal with it..it's really make me hurt..sad..and so confuse..what was I've done??then after that i've decided to end it..this is bullshit..damn it..be friend??owh please don't..just end it everything here..just leave me alone..i know it's hard..but what should i do..if we still go on..we'll just hurting each other..i dun want it happen again..perhaps not anymore..not the same mistake..the truth is till now i do think about him..OMG..why it's so hard for me to just let it go..why i must think about him..i hope i will better in time..all i can do just prayed for his happiness..people said that if you really do love someone just let he free..if he come back..he's yours..and if not..just let it be..



..this is the picture taken when i was in malacca..but one thing about this picture was about the bag..the bag that i was wearing..huhu..till now when i look at the bag i always think about him..because the bag was bought while we were hangout together in malacca..all the memory were still there..how can i just throw it..and deleted..til now..all i can do is..pray..pray..and pray......

Saturday, October 10, 2009

..Annoying...


Annoying…
Why ??hurm…Since hari raya he kept calling me back after 4 years..i guess..Can’t remember..He said 4 years...Then I just said it too…I thought he just called me again just wanted to say hi..but I dun know why he still called n msg me till I came back to unimas..Even I dun “layan” him…arrgghhh…he’s so annoying…Please…leave me alone…


Sunday, October 4, 2009

..Menu of da week..

Saturday morning..my housemate n I were went to Unaco which one of the supermarket in Samarahan…after bought all the “barng dapur” then we planned to cook something for our lunched..hurm??tom yam??wasn’t it too boring…then how about curry??
Me:nk msk pe yerk ari ni??tomyam??bowinknye..br je msk tom yam..then chicken curry??
Okid:ko pandai ke at msk kari??
Me:haha..dun know…
Then there was an aunty menyampuk in Swak slang..”Snang jak masak curry bah…”
Me:malu2 sendiri…hehe
Then we decided to cook chicken curry..even I’m not so confident to do that…I’ll try my best..Actually personally I’ve haven’t cooked chicken curry 100% by myself..Usually I just helped my mom to “kopek bawang..n all da small things…
After that I called my mom…
Me:mama cmner nk msk kari ayam??
My mom:lorr snang je la…then blab la bla….
Owh I got it….hehe…
Then tada….i’ve done my chicken curry successfully…..thanx mama…luv u mmuuaaahhhhh

See my worked....





..this is my first chicken curry..finally i made it....



..this was the side dishes..tandoory chicken and sayur campur...

Thursday, October 1, 2009

..trouble is a friend..

monink...
after 1 week holiday for hari raya puasa...i came back to unimas...hurmmm so bowink..my heart is so empty n dying(maybe)..huhu..so sad for being here after the holiday..hope not to be here...on Tuesday i have to go to class as usuall..but actually i already skip da photography class..haha..no mood to go..besides my slides for the asian cinema presentation still not finished..huhu..OMG wat should i do...but Alhamdulillah Thank God i've done my presentation successfully..even there was sumone who wanted to conquer the presentation..yerla dia kan leader(me n lea keep sayin' dat for the whole day..wakaka)
wednesday..she's already came back to unimas..but dun know why..she's still like dat..wat mke..argghhhh damn...i hate dat face...why she kept doin' dat..pe slh aku n lea...shit...please la...pls tell us wat happen...dun just be like dat...if u think u can survived with him..fine..but please be honest...sorry if both of us broke ur heart or sumthin'...but don't u ever thought about our feeling too???please la..were already know each other for 2 years or mayb not officially more than that..what ever it is..please b urself...really hope that one day she can say sumthing..atleast make us clear what was actually happent between us...i'm so tired to think about this..damn it!!!arghhhhh it's up to u la...ko pun da bsr kan!!...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

..timah...

my name is timah....hehe..this is timah which i'm so addicted...actually timah was an online game which is pet society..i played it in the facebook..became addicted since one of my fwens ask me to play it..haha..at the first time the game was boring to me..maybe bcoz i don't really knew how to play it..then when time goes by...i knew how to play it..then now the result was i become the pet society addict er.





timah's living romm


timah got squid


i forgot what was the fish name


timah was fishing..she got frontosa fish..hehe


timah ske men buai...



timah's garden...


timah's bedroom...beshkn..


piano's room


my kitchen


timah was racing with sipei and she's won..hehe

..my 23...huhu

thanx to all my fwenz for da makan2...really appreciate it...
even we're busy but we still together...i hope this year would be better than last year..really luv u guys..


all da food dat we had for dat nite...



let's potong kek..hehe

Sunday, August 9, 2009

it's easy for you...

why i need to cry just bcoz that thing...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...DAMN!!!!
i hate when I'm weak..
owh please i need to go to the beach...
really needed...
then suddenly i started playing the song from Sheila on7...
Oh no..it's really hurting me...
i was fool couldn't let my self to go...
even i feel the end....

Sheila On 7 – Mudah Saja

Tuhan
Aku berjalan menyusuri malam
Setelah patah hatiku
Aku bedoa semoga saja
Ini terbaik untuknya

Dia bilang
Kau harus bisa seperti aku
Yang sudah biarlah sudah

Mudah saja bagimu
Mudah saja untukmu
Andai saja.. Cintamu seperti cintaku

Selang waktu berjalan kau kembali datang
Tanyakan keadaanku

Ku bilang
Kau tak berhak tanyakan hidupku
Membuatku semakin terluka

Mudah saja bagimu
Mudah saja untukmu
Coba saja lukamu seperti lukaku

Kau tak berhak tanyakan keadaanku
Kau tak berhak tanyakan keadaanku
Mudah saja bagimu
Mudah saja untukmu
Andai saja cintamu seperti cintaku

Mudah saja…

Friday, August 7, 2009

my new sayang...











he is so handsome..gorgeous...tough n colorful...his age already 1 month i think..since i bought him at Satok's market...but actually i dun know umo die yg sbnr..
1st time i saw him..there was sumthin' dat was attract me to take him home..hehe..like he was begging me...then i said to my fwen what if i really want to have him..they said why not..but i was worry about our felo didn't allow us to hv anything as a pet at college..but who cares..i really wanted it...then i just bought it..with Rm 3..now he's mine..chewahhhh...actually he is a fish..we called it "ikan laga"..that's why la die cantik...now let me shared some of his posed..hehe