i only have one heart..

Please let me here by myself......

......................so tired.............................

...........what should i do?..............................
............yup..it's so weird..........................

.....i do realize that we only have a small world...........

......anything can happen in just a few minutes...............

..but..is it fair for me..........

...should i revised back the old chapter in my life............OMG!..seriously...i cannot take it anymore...........

i'm totally Malay..ok!

this morning conversation:
A called from customer
Person A:Yes who's your designer?
Customer:My designer was the arabic girl...
hah??/what?????OMG!..please i'm totally malay ok...
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Still on sorting up all the messy thing........hurmmmmmmm.......Seriously i don't know what to do..........

walking alone by myself..
then suddenly there's sumthing happened...
it make me realized that when you feeling empty,there's sumthing else that can make you feel u are actually have more than  you're ever realized..
and you must remember that everythings happy for a reason...
now..i can see the things from many perspective..
yup...like someone said "i like the way you represent ur self"...

totally exhausted!

what a day..as usuall at the morning i just go to my working place..and today i decided to help kak nurul to cleaned up the 1st showroom..so i asked my other collegue to bring up my beg to  the 2nd showroom which is my working place..so around 12.20am after i finished up everything i go to upstairs..then when i take out my phone from the bag..so many misscall and msg received from him..what???????????????then i just called back him and asking him why..even my heart still hurts...he asked me wether i'm working or not..i said yes..then he ended up the called..around 10 minutes he called me back..and asked me to go out in front of my office...then i saw him..What?????????????arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...he gave me a beg of nandos...Arghhh he just acted like nothing happened..OMG!!...then he said..suprised...arghhhhhh..and me just speechless...should i mad at him or what??excited??but i'm still mad at him..then i just give a bundle of punched..arghhhhhhhhh..he just said..."benci tandanye sayang"..........why he always like that...why he always act like that..i'm so confused.........OMG!!!!!!!..plsssssss........i'm so exhausted......

I love The way you Lie

i'm totally lost...yup lost in everything i've done..you hurt me twice..but who cares...?
i'm trying to foget..but it kept running to my head...tell me what do you see..yes i lost my mind..or maybe crossed the line..
this is not enough...arghhh..

another episode...
sizzling yee mee..dinner..hangout...chocolate..
you all really made my day...but thee truth is there's nothing special between us..
Yup..we're just friends...

Acustic Music Station..
Yes finally i found it...ngeeee...hurm..nothing much i can say..
but..it's better for me just forget it...

Hurm..FYI...this weeks nobody can have a leave..WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

-gossip liar-

gossip..
when sumone send a plastic beg of bread to me this evening at my working place..
my collegue guessed that it was by mr H..what???omg!!how they can think that we have a scandal..No..No..No...i admit that that guy always make joke with me..but..hurm..no..no..no..i only assume him just like my brother..ngee..

Liar..not l..i..a..r...ok..but a liar...
arghhh..why should i think of it..and sick of it...just forget it..but seriously it's really hurting me...
not as worsed as i have to speak english + arab with the foreigner at my company today :p..i can write in jawi..but sorry i can't speak arab sir...ahahaha...

my bos kept talking about the proposal...arghhhhh..please i want to leave this company ASAP!!

a chocolate bar

just came back from work..
what a tiring day..arghh like a disaster maybe..or maybe more than i ever thought..
now i just sit in front of tv watch a movie "kayangan"..dun know where the hell it's caming from..layan je la..
continue about today's rutine..
wake up at 8.30 am..go to bath..wash my clothes..and all by myself..not like usual using the washing machine..huhu..OMG!!now i have to do all of it by myself...
then about 10.00 am walking to the lrt Damai station..then transit to star lrt at masjid jamek..haish..so exhausted...
then bla2...start working..today i have to finished up all the urgent banner design..arghhhhhhh...it's too much...
then i go to the second showroom upstairs...because i have a customer to confirm their box design...felt so hungry..but thanx to that guy for a chocolate..hehe..yup he's new..but so "rajin menyakat"..but atleast i got sumthing to eat..to fill up my empty stomach..ngeee...

Dear Heart:Yup..i know ur tired..but please be strong and face it with all this thing with a positive perspective..."hey what are u talking about?"hurm..let it be...

moving on..

yup moving on..but what i want to say now is i have to moving out from my brother's house..because he had  bought a house at somewhere else..hurm so sad because i have to leave my nephew..huhuhu...i thought i will mish them a lot..."echu" no one we called me  with that name anymore after i open the house door...huhuhu.hurm...so sad.......i don't have any feeling to packing up my clothes and whatever...but today i have to to move out..so what to do..after this i have to learnt to survive all by my self...

working environment??
had 2 new staff..one guy n one girl...they are seems ok..beside the guy so "byk menyakat"..even at the first he looks so silent..but i'm wrong...haish....whatever as long we all being a good friends..
Suddenly yesterday.."the big bos said : after CNY you will had to handle all the things about management,staff..and so on..WHat??????OMG!..is it i'm dreaming...if they were someone else, yes i do happy when heard about that..but sorry to say i'm not interested with that...besides i want to move out from the company asap!Please God!yes it's true that will be a good opportunity to start my career..but sorry i'm not interested at all to work under the person like them....arghhhh it will be like a disaster for the rest of my life..i guess!..ngeeee...don't put so much trust on my self...

Cd Station..
Someone..arghh..i can't believe it..the person that had been told by her work in the same place with me...hurm..let it be..but thanx for do appreciate me..maybe for now we can just be friends.. :)..i do hurt a lot because of him..but it doesn't mean i have to hurt my self by doing sumthing not me..."ada paham:"ahahahah
*please ignore

i really need a time for myself....arghhhhhhhh..tired...
oopss..the pictures below just for interior design of this entry.. :p

You are fired!!

oh Damn! yesterday one of   my collegue at this company had been fired..and the best part it's only by phone..WTF!..pity her..

arghhh..........

at 7pm o'clock my kazie call..ask me to went out wif him..so we had lepakking at QBISTrO..HURM and guess what i had met Pierre Andre..OMG!..ahahaha...

my first love

yup i do love u..more than u ever had think abou it..ahahha..huh..what a tiring weeks that i ever had..a miserable ends of the year...besides i even didn't noticed it's already 2011..OMG!..what had i left before??now let me summarised all of it..
21/12/10 : had an interview as a graphic designer..yup i got the job
23/12/ 10:go back to my hometown..now just take it as a my vacation with miss FSH..ahahah..

had a beautifull moment here "pantai bisikan bayu"

pose n pose again

is it i'm like a teacher..ngeee..guess where i am..

and her..ahahahah

having "air batu campur" here...this picture was taken by my "abah"..so please ignore any mistakes..

27/12/10:got to came back to KL..arghh..by bus ok..huh...what a day...the bus had some problem..arghhh annoying...
28/12/10:i had start my new life as a grahic designer..is it real??
Date?? forgot already..had a photoshoot session with ms FSH..hehe

all those pictures taken from KLCC :P..very the koya la kan...haish...all because we don't have enough time to go to other place for our photoshoot session..

....
wahhhhhhhhh today already january 14...
damn! i really miss my heart here...being as a graphic designer make me felt like a shit...@$##$%@#$!$..all those words kept coming from my mouth..WTF...arghhh..let it be...Please God let me end all this as soon as possible..i really can't handle it anymore....

and bla bla..
actually i want to upload the new year pictures of me and my friends...when talked about that..there was something new happened in my life...hahahah...it's actually a story from the past 3 years..but now we already open a new book...it's all about a blonde girls..everythings was strat from her...hurmm..ok let me just leave it like this...and for you readers i promised that  i will upload of all of the updated pictures of mine...ahhh Damn i really missed my own space..SUMPAH i really needed..sorry if this updated are a little bit messy..what to do...juz wait ok...itu kaki kipas suda panggil...got a job for me :P

ok here all pictures from new year nite..

Yes this is our first meet up..nice to know u babes

Yes we already here..

too many peoples...huh!

wif all the crazy guys...

fireworks for end of year 2010

enough for the fireworks festive..now move to other place :P