i hate for being my self

seriously, i hate for who i am now..feels like a loser..stupid,idiot...arghhhh..pplease.everyday when i entered to my office felt like i'm really a dumb person...i dun know how to settled up my job...i dun know how to do programming..oh SUCK...i really hate that person..felt like i'm being a hypocrite when i talked to her...shiTT..all are fake!..can i just closed my eyes and forget it...and when i open my eyes i already at the island...oh GOD please i'm sick of it..i'm so tired and tension...i really hated for being hypocrite...seriously i'm totally LOST!

...end..

psycho part 2..
On last sunday,when i was sleeping in my room..suddenly i got a phone call at 5.52.AM ok!then there's no name caming up just a phone number..i wondering that maybe there was my neighborhood wanted me to reverse my car since my car was blocking sumone's car..but when i answered the call , she just asked me who am i?what??u are the one who calling me, than u are asking me for who i am?...than i asked her why??she said did u know sumone named ____________..then i asked again..and wondering why..but then she suddenly cried an said "sy rs mcm dperbodohkan"...whatttttt??????yes i know him..but i think our story was ended 5 years ago...she said , she found her Bf simcard in his car stated my number with something refer to his "another gf"........F***Ker..i already told him i got nothing to with our relationship beside just as friend...then the girls kept asking me..bla bla bla...nonsense..and what just can i do is laughing...yup it's true because i really dun have any feelings anymore to him...it's an old story between us..why he can't understand!!!!........arghhh...thanx for ruined my weekend...urghhhhhhhh.........

~A Bundle of Story~

oh Gosh..my blog seem so pity..no update,no colors..hurm..what a busy new episode...before that let me update my story in sequence....
1st on 25 of feb i officially quit from Amazon as a graphic designer...there were some pictures for my last day...so my friends ask me to go to ICT shah Alam as a farewell party..then we enter the snow house...OMG so cold...i had played some games in the snow house...so enjoyed, even we dun have so much time to spent..huhu..what to do because we already late when we arrived at the ICT..

-my space-

wif ms cz

with them at snow house..seriously so cold!

Then the next day i was went out to settle up my phone billing..but suddenly there were unknown person who just used my ic number to register a new account..arghhhh what a disaster..why must have the irresponsible person in the world!..so i have go to police station to make a police report to denied the case and to report it as a fraud case...So stressed!"for that unknown person, thanx for ruined my day!i believe that "Allah will be pay in cash to you someday for what have you done to me" huh!After settled up the report at the Maxis Center i went to Mid Valley with the 2 guys who are always "crazy".. :p

yeay i won the contest ;P

-me again-

Then on Sunday, i was followed my friend to Desa Water PArk...

Desa WaterPark is a family entertainment part that boasts of an exciting variety of water rides and slides. It also houses the longest Master Blaster in Asia the “Thunderbolt”. A place where you can enjoy the thrills and spills of the heart thumping adrenaline rush of the most fascinating water theme park . so join us and experience the fun.

Welcome to Desa Waterpark

from Google..

let's go bebeh...

superb..

so crowded..but i enjoyed the wave..

what a great day...

the rest i just let u all readers to make the conclusion..ngeeee
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Monday:just have a rest at home before i start my new work tomorrow..arghhh so scary...then at the evening i went to my my sis in law office then go back to Shah Alam..to my brother's house...

A new Day Has Come...

At 8.30am on 1st of mArch 2011 i registered my self at "Pusat Teknologi Maklumat, Universiti Malaya" as a new worker..Then i have to settled it down by myself because actually i had been here as a industrial Training Student..So, when i met the staff who had remembered me they were asking the same question "eh xabis praktikal lagi ke?bkn ari tu dah ke?"then i just smiled at them and explained...then they just laughed "patutla"...i'm not really nervous to the environment or the people here because some of them i already knew..but i'm nervous about my responsibility...OMG!let me do it with all the strength that i have...Then i was put in under Collaborative and Communicative Applications unit..
and the worse thing i have to do programming...hurm...everyday i felt want to go back home as soon as possible..i hope i can go through all this with a brave heart...But actually i'm so not satisfied with that person..how u can expect me to know all this thing in 10 minutes without any explanation?i know u are very superb..but please don't be so stingy..urghhhhh!..DAmn it...enough talking about the person...i'm sick of it...After 2 weeks i had some problem with my health..huhu..got mc also...i hope i can get well soon..and nothing worse will happened again...oopss even i already quit at my old company but sometimes in the weekend i'm still a part time graphic designer at the company...because the company still want me to help them..it's ok,besides i'm happy to do that...urghh so much things i want to update but sorry guys...i dun have enough time so i just simply do a synopsis for my whole story and mixed up all in one..is it ok?

..my last day..

wuwuwuwuwu...
Yup finally the day has come..and it would be my last day at Amazon as a Graphic Designer..huhu...Guys it's hard for me to leave you all...You're damn nice person...I swear i'll miss you guys...I missed every second that we had been together...Akak,Fina,Anne,Emi,Sizzie...OMG!..Thank GOD i've met you here..eventhough it's just for two months but it seems 2 years we had know each other...Thanx for everything..Sorry if i've ever hurt you guys..But seriously i really love you guys...You're made my day...and sometimes ruined my day to be "pendiam"..ngeeee...trust me i've tried so hard to be like that...

Akak:"benci akak laju2"..thanx for the sweetest present..so from now i'll dream about u... :*
Fina:"baby, please tk care of urself..dun noty2 ok... :Pehemmmmm
Anne:"i love ur bunting Design,keep it up....ahahahha...lebiu
emi:"i'm still merajok ok!..blueeekkk
Sizzie:"Misshhh ur rambut..wuwuwuwu..there's no one have the greatest hair like u....

Let me showed u my greatest sibling in the world..
p/s:just grab this pic from them...

Love u babe...(from http://sizziemaggot.blogspot.com/)

Amazon's Family...

errrrrrrrrr

Our last time
 

p/s:windu dadah, makan kenduri early in the morning n ngumpat time... :P

.me 100 percent negative..

hurm wondering why my entry subject like that...ngeee...hurm today is monday..so as usuall my offt day was on monday..so today i've to settle up everything.. because last nite my was "bebeling" at me...bla.bala..bla..because i didn't to anything for my new job requirement..then, i  wake up at the early morning uaroung 9.30 am..prepared my self..around 11 i already at Maju Junction to go to Pesuruhanjaya Sumpah..hurm settle..have a lunch at my favourite restaurant which is UKHUWAH...after that i realised there is a clinic near the restaurant..so i just gamble and having my meddical check up...the costing was RM 105..i think it's ok...so everything was settled and my urine test was NEGATIVE..!hahaha..but i still don't write my resignation letter..OMG...!lalalalalal

p/s:this picture got nothing to do with this entry :P

issues

Sometimes
I Feel like I’m going out of
My mind,

Boy the way you do me is a
damn crime,

But then you smile at me
and its all right,

With you there aint nothin' in between,

Every time that I walk out the door,
Tell myself I can't take it no more,

There’s a part of me won't let you go
Keep saying yes when my minds saying no,

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Its so wrong, boy you leave me hangin' for so long,
You empty out my love until its all gone,
You change the words but still it's the same song,
I’m tired of the melody.

Change my number and throw out your clothes,
But my feelings for you, it still shows,
I keep building the walls round my heart,
But then I see you, and it all falls apart...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Why fight it, cant hide it
Truth is I think I like it,
Confusion, illusions
Still I don’t know which way to go….


Chorus: (x2)
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues,
We got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues

Me and my heart we got issues
Don’t know whether I should hate you or miss you.

::Dear Heart:Seriously i hate u!::

..today is Sunday..Fine!!..

Morning world...today is sunday..yup i'm still like usuall wake up in the early morning and prepared to go to work...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!1..i hate weekend...why?because a lot of customer will come..and ofcourse my company will "tunggang terbalik"...out of control...but after this..weekend is the first thing i'll wait..hehehe...huh cannot wait to end this disaster episode...but i learned something preciously...which i couldn't bought it at any place...hurm....Like HELL!!!...

.....cannot wait to end up today...

...my life?........still messy....

.a new day has come.

..time goes by same as me..too many things happened..but didn't know how to settle it down...being as a graphic designer make me learned so many new things..but i cannot stand with the environment..seriously like a shit...!!but i love my new friends..they were so awesome...didn't know how to repay them back..Guys u light up my life...ngeee...hurm..but i'm so sorry if one day i have to leave u all...sorry for the late announced..actually me also didn't know how to deal with it..but life must goes on..i promise that i will not forget u guys...we still can "lepakking" together for dinner.. :)


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neway i'm so nervous for my new chapter in my life..i hope i can get  through with it....

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